while reading old posts in Tavi Gevinson's blog, which i have been digging in for some time now, i suddenly remembered how i made up drew imaginary magazines when i was a kid. I was very much inspired by K-Zone then, and so in tickler notebooks i began doing magazine covers assigned to months, with article titles, too (and issue/volume numbers. Ha.) and then when i grew up a little bit more i realized that nobody reads them, same way going with my comics which i start in mid-time release, like an issue#05 or #12. And that they are not being distributed whatsoever so there's no point in doing them and i came up with a conclusion that i was just being stupid.
BUT THEN now that i'm almost adult, through the internet i discover the infinite universe of ZINES, which are basically magazines too, but specific and exclusive *learn more about it on Rookie* in terms of theme, my desire to do something like that returned, along with my newly gathered knowledge and interest in art and design.
So in sum i really really want to make a sort of magazine right now. I already have an idea on what kind of zine i want and interesting semi-popular people i can actually interview. The only problem is that i want most of it to be handmade (e.g; handwritten articles, drawings, all.) and even if not, i do not have a computer anyways...and a scanner (now we're getting at the lonely part). the conclusion of this post is somehow i regained my eagerness over things as a kid and with regards to that, i am still hopeless and life is thoroughly inconvenient. Such a shame.